Tiny Tornado

i'm so over this crying weepy feeling i've been having. i'm the worst with dealing with my emotions. i'm feeling like enough is enough with it. i don't want to emote. i can feel myself closing down. i try to control it so bad.. but it almost always wins. i let it, it gets so intense i just can't fight it anymore. racing thoughts are such a bitch. it's like a tiny tornado in my mind picking up and throwing all these different thoughts and ideas around. i hope the church i watch tomorrow can lift my spirits because right now i'm just....here.