i'm emotional. what is freakin new? lol i've been listening to this song over and over again. this morning it just got to me and i started to cry. i dislike a lot of things i've done, and the person i've been towards some people. sometimes i get so down on myself. i hate it, but i do like to punish myself. i wish i wasn't like that. i wish i could just be ok with myself. i mean it's good that i do realize my behavior isn't acceptable. i'm the one standing in the way of my own happiness. all of this hurt and shame i gotta let it go.. i gotta forgive myself. i'm not always going to be the perfect person i feel like i MUST be. all the advice i give to all my friends to make them feel better, i need to take.. as well. it's normal to feel overwhelmed by life.. it's a crazy roller coaster.. but i'ma be here til i go to a better place so i just gotta put my all into being a better me everyday. today is going to be a good day, even if i am emotional. i can cry and smile if i want. who cares i'm bi-polar! :]
